from fear to FAITH

Your Soft Down March 30, 2011

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Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.

This verse has always been one that has stuck with me because of its optimism.  I have always been an optimistic person and have gravitated toward words of hope and encouragement.  It is much harder, though, to take it in whilst I’m feeling low.  So I ask the Lord, have I not been waiting?  I have been expecting great things, God, and my Hope has rested in You.  So God as I intellectually lean harder into You, would You change me? Would You renew my strength?   Would You renew my power?  Because right now the lies are telling me that I am small and weak.  I feel alone and my hope is dwindling.  God, take me into Your soft down and hold me close.  Let your heat warm this hard heart until it melts again and it can once again see the truth.  Lord, let me run again. Energize this body.  Let me stand and walk on firm ground.  I beckon Your ear Lord, I beseech your mercy.  Take me Lord.


Unpacking the lies. . . finding the Truth March 29, 2011

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It has been a treacherous year of unpacking the lies and the box is barely open.  There are lies that develop in our selves that become our own reality.  They are so tangible they cannot be distinguished from the truth.  Evidence lurks about substantiating the lies and then one cannot find the light of the real truth as quickly as when the sun dives beneath the horizon .  One is bathed in the darkness of the lies where it saturates and wrinkles one’s thoughts.  They torment the soul.  Yes, these lies are torture. 

I find myself scratching at the walls of this darkness trying to get out and breathe in the truth, allowing the light to illuminate what is real.  It is a tricky process that is causing me to doubt every thought I have.  Is it truth?  Is it a lie?  My hands bleed as my feelings tell me one thing and God’s Word says the other.  Why are they discrepant?  Why do I believe things that aren’t consistent with God’s Word?  Why do I find substitutes like food, people, the internet, exercise, and alcohol?

These lies tell me that I will be alone; I am not beautiful; I am rejected; I am worthless; there is no hope.  They are frightening thoughts and my only hope; if there is any chance that I can crawl out of that darkness is to fight them with the power of God.  I pray His Word, hoping that it will illuminate that which I cannot just as the sun rises and makes all visible.  There, I hope to find the Truth.

Psalm 25:15-17 My eyes are ever toward the Lord, for He will pluck my feet out of the net.  [Lord] turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted.  The troubles of my heart are multiplied; bring me out of my distresses.

Esther 8:16  The Jews had light [a dawn of new hope] and gladness and joy and honor.


On Shaky Ground March 4, 2011

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Lord – I’m on shaky ground.  It hurts too much to know the truth.  Take from me this heart that is jealous and put in me Your purity.  Amen


We beseech your prayers February 12, 2011

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Family & Friends, in about a week, I’ll be heading out with my team to Port-Au-Prince.  We beseech your prayers as we take this journey. thanks -t

If you would, please pray for. . .

  1. God to go before us – paving the way and that we would walk with confidence into His plan even if it isn’t evident.  (Isaiah 30:21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”)
  2. The Grace of God to cause/allow our team to be effective and productive in the jobs we work on but even more so that we are compassionate and full of care toward all people.  May we always error on the side of compassion.  (1Cor16:15b-16 and they have devoted themselves to the service of the Lord’s people. I urge you, brothers and sisters, to submit to such people and to everyone who joins in the work and labors at it.;1Peter4:8 Above all things have intense and unfailing love for one another, for love covers a multitude of sins [forgives and disregards the offenses of others].
  3. Protection, extreme favor, and health in all circumstances and in all times. (Especially with travel, the Salvation Army, the Haitian people, the job site(s), those who we purchase job materials & help from.) (Isaiah 40:31 31But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.; Isaiah 58:11 And the Lord shall guide you continually and satisfy you in drought and in dry places and make strong your bones. And you shall be like a watered garden and like a spring of water whose waters fail not.)
  4. Joy and Peace in all circumstances.  (Phil 4:5-7 Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.)

A Garden February 2, 2011

With all the snow that fell today it is funny that the image which is on my mind is that of a garden.  As I piled heap upon heap of snow onto my yard and garden beds today I thought about how that cold and icy snow will soon melt with the spring sun.  It will nourish and lift up the plants that will grow once again.    Maybe this thought shouldn’t surprise me after last night.  I met with some cherished lady friends over delicious snacks and we discussed the details of times when we saw God inexplicably bring positive results out of negative beginnings.  It reminded me of my garden where in early spring I put dead decaying vegetation from the year before, cow manure, and other dark and gritty substances into the earth; harsh, unpleasant, smelly beginnings.  Into this muck  is placed a humble bulb, a seemingly insignificant seed, or a seedling that can barely withstand its own microscopic weight.  Out of these strange beginning the garden begins. Water is added – beauty, pleasure, and worth appear – out of the mire.  Suddenly, I realize I am hearing the lyric’s to Matt Maher’s “Garden” in the back of my mind . . .

and You walk with me
You never leave
You’re making my heart a garden

And then, as to tie it all up with a bow, today while I am reading Frances J. Roberts’ book Come Away My Beloved, I come across this passage, “A Garden of Fountains” and it ministers to my soul. 

Behold, My hand is upon thee to bless thee and to accomplish all My good purpose.  For this hour I have prepared thy heart; and in My kindness I will not let thee fail. 

Only relinquish all things into My hands; for I can work freely only as ye release Me by complete committal – both of thyself and others.  Even as was written of old: ‘Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass’. (Psa 37:5)  I will be thy sustaining strength; and My peace shall garrison they mind.  Only TRUST ME – that all I do is done in love.

For adversities must of necessity come.  They are part of the pattern of life’s pilgrimage for every individual; and who can escape them?  But I say unto thee, that for those who walk in Me, and for those who are encircled by the intercessory prayers of My children, I shall make of the suffering, yea, I shall make of the trials a steppingstone to future blessing. (II Cor. 4:17, 18, Living Letters)

My arms are around thee, and never have I loved thee more!  I will make thee like a GARDEN OF FOUNTAINS whose streams are fed by the mountain springs.

And so I thank Thee, Lord, for this image – and please – please – make me like Your Garden.  Bear in me fruit, strength, and beauty that reflect Your radiance.


He Will Not January 28, 2011

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He can do anything.  He is all powerful and all knowing and yet there are a few things that He will not do.  Out of choice, He will not. 

This year my verse to live and be encouraged by is Hebrews 13:5-6.  The amplified version has captivated my heart.

Let your character or moral disposition be free from love of money [including greed, avarice, lust, and craving for earthly possessions] and be satisfied with your present [circumstances and with what you have]; for He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!]  So we take comfort and are encouraged and confidently and boldly say, The Lord is my Helper; I will not be seized with alarm [I will not fear or dread or be terrified]. What can man do to me?

As I continue to walk closer to God I wonder why I sometimes forget that He will not let me down.  No one else can claim this – not my family – not my nearest and dearest friends.  After a year in which I experienced betrayal and distance between friends and family it is hard to climb back into a seat of trust.  In result of these experiences I find myself retracting from relationships that I normally would jump into.  It’s difficult especially knowing that it could mostly certainly will happen again.  Oh the pain of mistrust.  I then undeservingly transfer these thoughts onto God but He quickly comes back and reminds me that He is no mere human – He is able to be trusted – He is capable of being trusted – He is worthy of being trusted and He will not – He will not – He will not ever leave me.

Oh Lord – Teach me to thrust my whole self into Your Trust – You are able & capable of a trust that is beyond my imagination.  Let me not live in fear but in faith that you have and you will keep this promise. – Amen


Will these pieces grow in the ground? May 22, 2010

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Yet another song that is speaking deeply into me.
How do words and music touch us in such a way that they move us to change?

Lyrics by JJ Heller

Scenes of you come rushing through
You are breaking me down
So break me into pieces
That will grow in the ground

I know that I deserve to die
For the murder in my heart

So be gentle with me Jesus
As you tear me apart

Please kill the liar
Kill the thief in me
You know that I am tired of their cruelty
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains

You burn away the ropes that bind
And hold me to the earth
The fire only leaves behind whatever is of worth
I begin to see reality
For the first time in my life
I know that I’m a shadow
But I’m dancing in your light

Teach me to be humble
Call me from the grave
Show me how to walk with you upon the waves
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains